Friday, July 20, 2007

My friends and I are so different

We all some how forge friendships with people that are most like us...people we have things in common with. A kinship of sorts. The more we are alike the closer the bond tends to be.

Well, will someone please tell me why I am nothing like my current friends nor do I have anything in common with them. I often sit back and wonder why I am friends with these people and how we established these relationships in the first place.

All of my current friends are ones that I've have for many, many, many years. Sure, I think perhaps we had much in common when we were young but not so much now.

We have grown in many different ways and our interests go off in many different directions.

Coming to this realization is both liberating and frightening. I think I choose to keep these friends out of obligation maybe. Afterall, we all have been friends since we were kids.

If I decide to end this charade and move on I will be alone and lonley and the thought of that is more then I care to bear and it keeps me hanging on to these friendships.

I'm not sure what my future will hold.

Maybe somewhere in the back of my mind I feel that my strong desire to move out of Maryland will allow me to start fresh and develop new relationships and leave these people behind without the guilt that just dropping them would cause.

Maybe I'm just too cool for them. LOL