Ok, I finally did it. My boyfriend and I had this big blow up this morning. I have been very quiet and short with him the past couple of days because he upset me a few nights ago when I was trying to get affectionate with him and he pushed me aside. That was the absolute last straw. I am so sick of him pushing me aside and rejecting me when I am trying to get close. I flat out told him that I don’t feel he really gives a damn about me and that he really doesn’t want to be there with me so I’m done.
I asked him how long it will take for him to move out and he wanted to know how much time I was giving him. I am not giving him any specific time limit as yet but he is definitely on notice that I want him out.
This is very hard for me because I really care for him. I am so sick of one failed relationship after another. I am at a point in my life I need a husband. I want someone to share my life with. Someone who will appreciate me and he does not. I gave so much of myself only to have him hold back everything from me.
This is such a sad day for me. I am on the verge of tears every 5 minutes but deep down I know this is for the best. I deserve someone who will love me and who really want to be with me. I’m just so tired of being alone though.
Oh well, another on bits the dust.
