Have you had a moment in your life when you wanted the ground to just open up and swallow you whole to never be heard from again?
I have had a few but one is a clear front runner. I was seeing this guy years ago in my early twenties. To say I was hooked on this guy would be an understatement. He was the guy I experienced my first orgasm with. I was young and dumb back then because I was quite inexperienced in the world of romance. We were not exclusive which, of course, was something I wanted but he could not provide but I nonetheless stuck with him.
He invited me over to his place one evening. I thought we were going to spend some quality time together but as I pulled into the parking lot of his apartment building I noticed two girls getting out of their car and walk toward his apartment. I sat frozen in my car watching as he opened the door and let these women in. “Did he forget I was coming over?’ immediately flashed in my head. I sat there in the car waiting to see if the girls were going to leave. About 3 minutes later he came out accompanied by the two women carrying a bag. Apparently he was headed to work. My dumb ass didn’t know what to do at that moment so I ducked down so he couldn’t see me. Bright idea seeing as I was parked directly in front of his building! I was hoping they would all get in their respective cars and drive off without noticing me there. No chance. I looked up and saw him looking at me through the car window. I didn’t know what to do so I just started the car and drove off!
I was mortified. I am sure he thought I was a crazed stalker or something. In all these years we have never EVER discussed that incident.
I still cringe when I think of that moment.
