Hey all....I don't have any funny or insightful things to post this morning. I'm feeling rather down today. I've been dealing with the demise of the relationship I tried so hard to hold on to. I haven't even told any of my friends or family yet that The Analyst and I broke up. I just don't know what to say nor do I feel like fielding a million and one questions about why we are no longer together. I am still very tender about this right now and I just can't answer alot of questions about it.
I am hurt and angry that I am back here again. Alone, depressed and lonely. I am angry and hurt that he destroyed what we had. In the beginning things were so amazing. We were closer then two people could possibly be. We were looking toward a future together then for some reason it all stopped and I am left here just confused and hurt to my core.
He called me this morning to talk..... to tell me how things are not going the way he had hoped they would and how sorry he was that things are the way they are between us. I just lost it on the phone and just cried and cried. I just couldn't stop. Even now as I write this at work I am sitting here at my desk trying to hold it together but not doing a very good job of it.
What do I tell people? I don't want to face this.
I had an appointment with my ENT doctor yesterday and was told I needed an outpatient surgery. That saddened me. Not because of the surgery...that's nothing but because there is absolutely no one that I can count on to take me and be with me while this surgery is taking place. It just drove home the point that I am so completely alone.
This is a very depressing place to be in right now.
I'll bounce back and be ok at some point but right now I am feeling pretty low.
