You know, sometimes you sit back, in a quiet moment and think over your life. You think over past experiences and wonder what kind of person you really are.
I have those moments ever so often. Self reflection is the hardest thing for a person to do. I forces you to look at areas in your life or character that maybe hard to deal with.
I remember when I was married and my husband and I went to counseling to address the marital issues we were having. The therapist pointed out some real, deep seeded issues my husband was having. For about 2 days after that counseling session, my husband just mopped around the house not really saying much, very introspective. It was several days later that he confided that he had issues with what the therapist said and it was difficult for him to deal with. What was my husbands’ response to all of this???? Dump this therapist and find another. I didn’t want to do that because I wanted him to face his issues and not run or hide from them but that is exactly what he did because we did switch therapists and this new guy did nothing to help the issue hence we split up later that year.
I say all that to say self reflection is very hard but very necessary.
I’ve been wrestling with the issue of getting close to people myself. I have no problem getting close to a man but when it comes to forging relationships with other women I tend to not get much deeper then the superficial thereby not allowing me to have the close, deep, relationship I want with my gal pals.
I don’t know why I am so closed off but I am working on it.
