I am really anxious and focused on this move and I am chomping at the bit to get it under way. I feel I am in limbo. I can not take on any real long term commitments here because I would have to leave them whether it's 6 weeks from now or 6 months, I am leaving. For this reason I am not really trying to date anyone either. I do not, and I repeat, I do not want to complicate things by getting involved with anyone then have to either break his heart or heaven forbid get MY heart broken with the inevitable break up dance.
I was speaking to a guy associate the other day and he was trying to fix me up with his friend who he thinks I would be perfect for. Yeah right. First off, this associate of mine is really, really a gross little man. He is just disgusting. I get repulsed when I see him. With that said, I really don't hold out much hope that his friend would be any prize. Secondly, I told this associate that I was not looking to get into anything. He kept trying to convince me and I finally relented and said, "Look, if he is open to the idea of moving away in the near future then I may entertain the idea of meeting him." Whatevs.
I am so focused on trying to get things laid out so that my move goes smoothly whenever it happens. Life for me right now is really good save for the fact I miss my mother like crazy. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of her and miss her. This was not supposed to happen to her but I digress. Besides all that crap, life is really good. I am tolerating my friends here in Baltimore OK, my job is going great although I am bored but that's neither here nor there. I am meeting new friends that I am hanging out with and loving it. My Mary Kay business is going along swimmingly. Things are really great and I am just biding my time so I am NOT willing to complicate all that with a relationship.
If I did find myself in a relationship and had to end it because I was moving, that would be an easy excuse to walk away because the guy would undoubtedly know that this was coming. Or I could end up like The Pioneer Woman who met her "Marlboro Man" just as she was planning her move away as well and he completely put a monkey wrench in those plans. That would never happen to me nor would I want that because my time in Baltimore is really done but whatever.
If you got involved with someone and you realized it had to end for whatever reason how would you do it? How would you enter into that break up dance with someone as to not totally decimate them, unless they deserved it of course?
